BUY (OR DOWNLOAD) THE REDRAW/REWRITE OF "IN THE BLACK" HERE!

still slow going behind the scenes, but the flickers of brightness where i can draw and write like it's nothing are slowly becoming more and more common. slowly. much more slowly than i would prefer. but it IS happening. i can't even tell you what a relief this is lol. for like the last two years and especially during this process of getting off the meds i've felt like "is this it? is this all there is to me? is this all i am now?? is it going to be like this forever???" and the answer is thankfully "no". it will come back. its just taking an inconveniently long amount of time. i'm up to a page a week, not great but not terrible. but not great lol. i'm trying to plan a wedding here!

the pages im working on as of writing this are difficult in a new way: it's a lot of writing. this is a completely different "muscle" than the drawing "muscle", which seems like an obvious observation until you go to flex it and realize it's weaker than you realized.

i shared the story direction with adam the other night and he understood where i was going with it. like, i still know where im going and what im doing with this. i swear! and im excited about it! that's why this is so frustrating!

i'm thinking of revamping the patreon eventually. this wedding planning shit is taking up the majority of my waking hours and its making me miserable; the idea of having to do two things i hate (i dont want to think about money stuff at all!!!!!!!) at the same time is too much to bear when i'm also trying to get off antidepressants. please bear with me as it continues to be in a state of bare bones use. you do at least get early pages, even if my buffer is winding down. again T_______T this sucks lol